"Got it"?

Some people make me gently laugh....

the kind of people pretending they know a lot about the world, pretending to understand the whereabouts of the society we live in... but never give a damn about the others, or never listen to what others have to say... Their world is filled with their Ego only, or such is the impression they give. It is a "them against the world" game, it is a self-centered dialogue, where everyone but them is excluded.

So they wrap themselves into a puppet game, loudly crying out that no one ever understand, that they are the victims of a system that is evil -oh so evil-... while trying to manipulate the facts to their own benefits, shamelessly using the same process they claim they are the victims of...

How great a temptation it is, and use the same process... It is so easy, and for a person who master languages trick and nuances, the game my have a really thrilling flavour...

I must admit, in all honesty, that I ,too, judge sometimes too fast, or make cliché thougths as mine. Experience proved me wrong, and, contrary to what a many might think, it is not always my eldest who had me realize about my mistakes. I would even say that, being in permanent contact with people younger than I, I tend to try and be more open-minded, less adult than I really am.

Adults always tend to patronize around, making a point of honour to teach the others by their own experience. Of course, even though they often proved right (for experience, as a whole, is something you cannot fight against), it is not a reason to treat younger opinions as nonsense.

Well, there are exceptions, sometimes.

When faced to such stubornness, altering of the sayings, sneaky behaviour, misplaced pride and drama-like attitude... I think the best response ever is silence.(thi is , after having cooled down enough to think logically ^^. Silence, after yet another countless warning...

And the let the things sort out by themselves... Because in the end, the only persons that can be fooled by such a game....are the ones who started it in the beginning...

"Got it"?

^^

Thank you...

For entering my life, unexpected...thank you

For the love that you give, without restrain...thank you

For being around, even far away, and support me in the bad days...thank you

For being you, simply.... thank you

For the smiles that you give, always, and for caring about me, always....thank you

For being strong, making myself stronger....thank you

For trusting me, ever since the beginning...thank you

For taking me as I am, with flaws and freckles...thank you

for al the small things that make me melt for you, and that I won't post here ^^...thank you...


All of those priceless memories...


Happy anniversary, mon amour !!!!!!!!

Self Promotion

I was AWOL....

*bear hugs* to everyone who commented/read the previous entry. You guys are peaches!!! ^*^

Ah... I don't feel like writing those days... Maybe is it because of the autumn, but I feel more like cudling like a big fluffy cat near a big fire, open a book and forget about the whole world and its damned crazed things.



Pure fantasy of course, but pic above, plus cosy hearth, minus ugly white lamps....= yummy cosy good ole library....

Late Sunday night, strangers (or so we think) allegedly broke in the hall of our apartment building, stole all the keys (the ones leading to the cellars etc) and broke to video camera installed in the entrance hall. Nothing is more stressing that feeling insecure within your own walls...

Anyway...been browsong amazon to make a whishlist, thinking about how many thing I desire and that aren't available on a list...

Farewell message

To the Do As Infinity members team:



“So far away…just far away…”

It’s been about two years and a good half that I’ve been knowing Do As Infinity… It’s been such a long time already, and I still can remember it as it was yesterday…

I won’t tell you that I am sad to see the end of your journey all together. Because, somehow, it wouldn’t be all true. I have so many so many so many good memories about yout that it wouldn’t be fair to put the blame upon you…

Sometimes, when ask what “Do As Infinity” means, I often answer “a life change”. The emotion when I discovered the two songs that stay my favorites ever: “Fukai mori” and “Shinjitsu no uta”. The exploding of my bubble of solitude two years ago, when I registered to the Daiforum. My life getting better as your music get me to know people sharing the same passion about Japan and Asia, new friends… and in the end, a new love.

Your music brought us together.

And if I had to meet you one day, if I had to tell you just one thing, it would be the following: “your music brought us together". Me and my love, me and all the people around here.

We’ve been through thick and thin. Greetings new friends, seeing old ones departing, sometimes in a painful way. Sticking all together when technology decided to play a nasty trick on our communities, in those very days of your separation, when we needed to talk the most…

I do hope that one of you will read this, along with the messages of my fellows daifriends. I do hope you will realize how important you have grown to each of us, to me….How that forum dedicated to your band became like a second family to a many of us…

I do hope that, whatever path is now in front of each of you, you will follow it at your best. That’s the image your band gave us, all those years.

As I mourn the passed Do As Infinity days, still hesitating between joy and sadness, I thank you a last time.


See you soon, maybe.

Stay in my heart, always.



From:

Ichiban
--Moderator of Daiforum--

about broken things and aliveness...

Good news is: forum is back.

Bad news is: Do As Infinity is actually splitting. I feel too weird still to write about how I feel about this. I do not want to let angry feelings and resentment take over the two years and a half of bliss.

LAst night on the train, I was forced to plug my mp3 player in... For people listening rap ,and singing on it... either need to be shut up by meain of chainsaw...since i have but a blayer at hand, I chosen the protection option.... But... There were only do as songs... and i listened to them first time after knowing about their splitting over.

It was not a funny experience. Each words sounded in my ears liek they had never did. Music felt more powerful, maybe more present that it has ever been. Ofytentime i seen my reflexion on the verge of tears. Tears of anger at myself, how dare I be so affected. Tears of sadness, no, more of nostalgia.

And, as I used to, back in those days of loneliness... iages of some fanfiction, about some puppy-eared moderator, and her reaction towards dai splitting up. Visions of shattered glass, darkness, closed doors and tears unsaid. A "yotaka no yume" song, calling yet another catastrophe. No more DAI, and the near lost of all our friends. Technology has a wicked sense of humour , sometimes.

Facts only, Ichiban, facts only. Moreover, life goes on, with its daily struggles.... And my being worried about some important events, important to my loved one, important to his future... All my thoughts goes to him right now.

so far I leave my sadness deep inside a corner a my heart. And when time come, I will write it out. Like a bad deam that'd need exorcism.

DAIFORUM --2 days later --

The forum is still down, but thanks to Heartless Cloud (thank youfor the link, Mroneder ^^ )here is some temporary forum


DAIFORUM -- 2days later --


Please, if you can share the word, do it !!!!! :bigthumb:


(I am waiting for MAv's news about what happened....)

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DAI is splitting...

..or so goes the rumour...

Again, and again, and generally before any "Anniversary Release", the Do As official website swirls under devastated fans comments about some splitting over. It's been two years or so that I am a fan , and it's been two years or so that September proves to be a crisis month in the life of us Do As addicted.

Not to sound offending but... If this is a trick made up by Avex, or by the band marketing guru to have people freaking out and get onto some frenzy buying, good job, guys ! If this is a trick to strenghen the fan base, and get some live performance full of people boosted by the "Last time we gonna see DAI" energy, that's the thing to do ! And please do not forget to charge a maximum in the ticket selling, poor Avex would be so happy.....Your are not better than any marketing team ! Thank you for taking advantage of people, generally young, and have them jeopardize their dreams. Or for some of them, to shatter the only thing they have left.(For, no, the life of a teenager is not always simple. There are serious, unsaid hurtings that you grown-up, (and that I sometimes tend to forget) cannot understand) It is a positive message, a willto face every troubles witha brave smile on. It talks about values, about fun, about sadness in true words. Do As talks the talk that those young poeple maybe haven't found amongst the grown-up people around them.

I want to believe that none of the band member is at the origins of such rumours, I mean, not in a marketing aim.

However... If it is really the will of the members... If Banchan is really gonna begin a solo project, if Ryo-san is really gonna continue his Missile innovation adventure, and if DAI-sama is really gonna stay in the shadows forever...Well so be it.

those persons, and what they brought to me by their music is so huge, so meaningful, so important that I cannot honestly blame it upon them. But sincerely wishing them farewell, and see you soon, maybe, under other projects, under new beginnings.

Face it or not, a bands life in time is always limited.

Does it mean that the dream is over? Certainly not.

Of course I would be sad not getting any more CDs, any more PV's any more infos.. But geez, Do As Infinity, it's more than merchandising stuffs !!! It's about a happy celebration of life! And somehow I'd like better no Do As anymore, than bad Do As, I mean, a band without the sparkle of difference that got me into them, more than to any other bands, any other music.

It is, on a side way, a terrific forum adventure, with people I am glad to have met !! Would the end of a band means the end of the ties? Would the end of the band mean the end of the boards. Sadly enough, I have no power whatsoever to make things going my way. If it was to me to decide, I would let it open. There will still be peopel new to the DAI music, there would be still a place for a Ryo-san section, a Banchan, a Dai-sama one. But it's not my forum, after all. IT's won't be mine to decide.

I am sad because of those rumours, well, mor esad to see how it affected some of the poeple I know. IT is never a good news to see people you appreciate hurting, even if the news doesn't affect you the same. And the worst of that, it's that there are no words, no comfort thing that can be said or done. Just waiting for the rumour to be confirmed or denied. And trying to cheer everyone up, at the best I can do. Only the certitude that music lives forever in our hearts. Might sound cliche, but if one of you got a better way to say it, please do.

It is maybe the biggest crisis of the band existence. It is maybe the biggest scam Avex have ever done. And on that case, don't count on me to support Avex any more (aka buy their stuff).

And it is maybe the first time that no words , no posts, no smileys can get the sadness of some Do As fans away... And on that.. I have no solution...


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on http://www.d-a-i.com/index.html :


1999年9月29日にデビューして6年の時間が経ちました。
沢山のご声援をいただいて順調に音楽活動を続けることが出来ました。
ありがとうございます。本当に感謝の気持ちを言葉にすることは難しいとも思います。
そして今年の9月29日を持ちまして、またDo As Infinityは新たな節目を迎えることとなります。


Do Ａs Infinityはそれぞれの道を歩むこととなりました。


伴都美子はソロアーティスト。
大渡 亮は「ミサイルイノベーション」などのバンド活動。
長尾 大は「Amasia Landscape」などのプロデュース活動、作家活動。


これは3人がアーティスト、音楽家として次のステップを目指した結果の、
ごく自然な流れであると思います。
6年間の充実した日々を通じて得たそれぞれの宝物を
次の音楽活動に生かしていきたいと思っています。


Do Ａs Infinityは解散いたします。


長い間応援しつづけてくださった皆様、本当にありがとうございました。


伴 都美子、大渡 亮、長尾 大の今後の活躍にご期待ください。



Do As Infinity：TOMIKO VAN , RYO OWATARI , DAI NAGAO & ALL SUPPORTERS.




■Do As Infinity ライブ告知
ラストライブ決定！
2005年11月25日（金） 日本武道館

本当に皆様ありがとうございました。
武道館でお待ちしております。ぜひお越し下さい。

※詳細は決定次第、http://www.d-a-i.comにて発表いたします。



メンバー3人からのコメントも後日、発表予定です。


｜ウィンドウを閉じる｜


Translation:

"It debuted on September 29, 1999 and the time of six years passed.
Music was able to keep acting well by getting a lot of rootings.
Thank you. I think making the gratitude really a word to be difficult.
And, it has September 29 this year and Do As Infinity comes to face a new turning point.



Do As Infinity came to walk on each road.


Tomonat Yoshiko is a solo artist.
Large Wataryou is a band activity such as "Missile innovation".
Nagaodai is a produce activity, and a writer activity such as "Amasia
Landscape".


I think that this is a very natural result flow that three people
aimed at the next step as an artist and a musician.
I want to do to the following music activity through enhanced every
day of six years each obtained treasure whether it is a life.


Do As Infinity will dissolve.


Thank you really for everybody who kept assisting for a long time.


Please expect it of the activity in the future as big as Tomonat Yoshiko, large
Wataryou, and Nagao.



Do As Infinity:TOMIKO VAN , RYO OWATARI , DAI NAGAO & ALL SUPPORTERS.




- Do As Infinity live notification
Last live decision.
Friday, November 25, 2005 Nippon Budoukan

Thank you really for everybody.
We will wait in Nippon Budoukan. Please come by all means.

- I will announce details with http://www.d-a-i.com as soon as it decides it.



The comment of three members is announcement schedules later.


|The window is shut. |"

Childhood Toys

Feeling a bit nostalgic those days, I been thinking about the games that accompanied my childhood... In a time when computer games where outta my reach (and where a Packman cartridge practically ruined our TV...)

I was wondering if you, too, had some good memories about games, be it cards, toys, puzzles, dolls.....

Here are a few yours truely was used to play with.... And still posses in her attic ^^

*) The good ole Rubik's cube (at the time, no internet to give you the solution, hehe.......)



*) I also used to *love* all "My Little Poney" toys. Good ole days where poneys resembled poneys, and where material was thick plastic....



*) I never been a fan of dolls (all those baby-like items bored me to no end.....) but on the contrary, I had a pretty good collection of "Matchbox" toy cars



*) aside from a "hoola-hoop" i never managed to spin around my waist , I used to play with that, too ^^ (yuo know, like what Rocky does while exercising XD) "leap rope", or whatever you call that in english ^^



*) cards and family games too.... Trivial Pursuit, Monopoly, or this funny one... "le jeu de l'oie"



*) and more that I forgot.... ^^

Standing aside of them all.

My dad's cousin has come to visit us, along with her wife.

As both him and my dad are talking of the past, war events, sad events, harsh events I only knows about by overhearing some unsaid conversations.... I feel like hiding here in my room, alone, fearing to learn what I shouldn't know....

Past events of people unknown to me always frightens me... I remember one day, my grand'ma told me about her story, about how she survived war... Dark imagines I wish I coud have flied away, expell form my memory... As she was telling me, tears in her eyes, how nasty the Nazis were, I was silently begging her to stop...

I simply cannot stand seeing my beloved ones suffering that much... I am coming from a tiny family, but were links and personalities are so strong that nothing is ever simple... Maybe I am bearing that complexity inside, as if I was the mirror of all those people that made my being on earth possible...

I wish I could know their story, but at the same time I am afraid of what I might discover...

Having a dad who lived in a uber rich house, being driven at school by his own butler, in a big expensive car (back in the 40's) then seeing his dad loosing it all, betrayed by his own kin, then passing away unhelp, alone, in poverty...my dad only remaining close to him...

I couldn't stand seeing my dad suffering again... I simply cannot...

Please forgive me, my dear family.... Please forgive me of not being able to say aloud how I am glad to know that you exist, how I love you without knowing you, and how I regret not being able to voice out all those feelings...

Or simply holding you in my arms...

Because this artist is awesome...

RAISTLIN's FAN ART



credits to Tang Sin Yun !!!


ain't that cool? ^___________________________^


*is fan of Raistlin* ^*^

::::EDIT::::

to add on my book wishlist...

-The Legend of Huma
-Kendermore
-Brothers Majere
-Dark Heart
-Flint, the king
-The soulforge
-Brothers in arms
-Dalamar the dark
-Dragons of a fallen sun
-Dragons of a lost star
-Dragons of a vanished moon
-Tanis, the shadow years

Stop making "what do to" lists, since anyway you never have the time to do all what's on those lists. Maybe limit yourself to some post-its around.

My, My, there is indeed a size limit to the title form....


If any genius of the HTML, XHTML , whatever read this... how to change the code so that the "0 comments/1 comments" line becomes some "ichiban is waitng to be fed/ichiban have eaten x times"

Granted, this is just an example.


Hehe...........

To all the *bad* drivers

WTF is wrong with you?


Does your SUV or big Alfa Romeo allows you not to respect the rules?


For, as a pedestrian, I need to rely only to what is given (I dare say tolerated) to me, this being Pedestrian crossing, and the hope that you drivers will respect MY priority as I respect YOURS.

But when a fcuking b@st!rd, as the ones that I crossed today, who nearly hit me this morning, or nearly got me into some accident this noon, simply laughes it all and disregards my rights (aka being able tu USE the pedestrian crossing, granted that NO STUPID MORON (yeah, that's a pleonasm) parked his car on it), well other than giving him the good ole middle finger, I only have to wish that he and his wonderful car will meet a tree soon.

And preferably a big one.

I am sick of shutting the fcuk up when faced to such sickening people. And since the police (certainly NOT the police) won't do anything to it, what's left to me is risking my life about 14 times (yes 14 times ) a DAY, hoping I won't get in the way of such a egoist of the road as you, *bad* drivers.

I wish that one day you will be in my place, and got nearly hit by one of those big pricey cars you seem to like so much.

I wish taht one day someone less patient and less educated than I will explain to you why you are such a bother.

I wish that one day you will total your oh so precious car, since to you it is even more worthy than a human life.

Photoshop.exe

Easy Ramen ^^

made some "HOME-MADE" RAMEN last night !! (understand, dried noodles pack + what was on the fridge lols)


You need:

- 1 pack of dried noodles "ramen" (there are different flavour, choose one that goes on well with meat)
- 200g Pork meat (thin slices) (you can use beef too : even more tastier ^^ )
- 4 big dried mushrooms
- preserved ginger (the one you use with sushi, dun remember the English name)
- salt, pepper
- a spoon of oil (i had only Sesame oil left)
- a spoon of soja sauce
- a spoon of Mirin
- a few leaves of fresh Coriander


The cooking:

1. Slice the pork in thin slices, about 1 cm . HAve a pan heating with a spoon of oil , and heat it to the max. Then carefully drop the meat, let it grill a bit. Reduce the heat when the meat becomes grilled, then add salt, pepper, soja sauce and mirin. Let it gently cook, until the sauce becomes a bit sticky.

2. Meanwhile let the mushroom dip in hot water. Then, cut them in thin slices, about half a centimeter.

3. Then, cut your ginger in thin slices too, as well as some Coriander leaves. Preserve for later. (but add a few crushed leaves in the pork meat, mix gently, and put out of heat)

4. When all of your ingredients are done, deal with the noodles. Easy, just follow the instruction on the packed XD.(dun put too much water, you'll see why..)

5. When the noodles are cooked, dip in a big bowl. Then gently add the pork slices, mushrooms slices, and finally ginger. (make it so that it doesn't sink in the noodles ---> careful with water !!)spread the remnants of your crushed coriander leaves, and add a few coriander leaves, for decorating it all...

6. Enjoy !!!!


(dunno if this is close to real ramen, but it is yummy hehehe )

Monday, Crappy Monday....

Feels like I am in the middle of a maelstrom, the more I struggle to get out of it, the more i go deeper and deeper... Staying cool no matter what, I'll find a way out anyway...

Woke up in the middle of night, 3h41 am. Turned TV on, crappy programs, is tehre really peopel tuned in at that hour of the night? finally got myself to sleep, helped by the thought of my honey.... strong thought deep thought lots of him, him, him...

Am at chronicles book II. The story is so captivating I can hardly read anything else (I generally read 2 or 3 books at a same time...)... the situations, no matter what the fantasy world, feels real, I mean, the feelings feels real all way through.....

again, tears nearly came true too... ^^



***

To Do:

- learn how Cool Edit Pro works

- make a table of content for my Tagalog textbook

- resize pics, so taht i can make a webpage about it

- learn how to insert thumbnails

- shopping for groceries

The first time in a long time....

Finishing the second volume of Dragonlance -- the Chronicles, I surprised myself by being on the verge of tears. You know, the kind of emotions that suddenly taps on your shoulder from behind, while you are watching a movie , alone in the dark... Well, imagine the very same emotoin, in daylight [well, at dusk], a book almost finished between your hands, in a noisy train, with people sitting around...

For a moment I was there in Krynn, feeling as I was living that painful events too.. [no more will I say, no spoilers here !! :p]



It's amazing, how words alone, can bring you to such a state of emotions. But maybe it is our society, so enclosed in a universe of images, pictures, colours and movements, that we almost forgot the very sensation of words, black on white in paper tears...And it's been a long time since I have found a book able to offer me all this...

Maybe books nowadays lack of this power of depicting things. OF having us actually live the story. Maybe a lot of them deal with faded subjects (books about sucessful people, books about "new writers", provocation, society books, Harry Potter (the 5th volume kinda annoyed me...so loud and so vain...)Maybe people lost the will to read about heroic stories too.... How many of them have seen "The Lord of the Rings"... But how many of them did actually read it, making their way through the story behind the story, the highly spiritual content? People crave for fast seeing, fast consuming, then forgot about everything when it's not "hype" anymore. How many would dare say they think "Aragorn is darn hot" (well, me, I must admit ;) )? Saying that you pre-ordered "HP6" is sooooo much more hype-ish !

On another side, how people would be able to discover those wonderful Dragonlance stories, considering how difficult the books are to find?

My only advice would be.... Unless you got lucky finding a boyfriend (^*^)who can teach you the ancient lore and arcane knowledge of heroic-fantasy litterature, go get yourself the Chronicles of the Dragonlance series. By far, the most well written books in that genre, where Knights in armour seem so alive, where Elven maiden are anything but some silly lighthead brats, where dragons can get a medieval flavour that your KungFu's ones cannot offer you, where fantastic or human characters go through the same pains and sorrows we all know: betrayal, hard choices to make for a life, friendship, love, honour, choices, but also failures, sadness, mistakes or death...

Tolkien can be proud of his paper children....

Raist'

Wrote an entry yes.

But I felt like keeping it private...

^*^


:edit:

let me introduce you to my new collection of gifs ^^



^*^